FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU DAVID MATTHEWS.
I GAVE YOU MY ENTIRE FUCKING HEART AND YOU WERE TOO MUCH OF A PUSSY TO HOLD ON TO IT. YOU LOOKED ME IN THE EYES AND CARED FOR ME AND SHOWED ME HAPPINESS LIKE NO ONE ELSE THEN LIKE NOTHING YOU LITERALLY JUST LOST ALL FEELINGS FOR ME? FUCK YOU FOR BRINGING ME TO CLOUD 9 THEN LETTING ME FALL AND HIT THE FLOOR. I AM NEVER OPENING MY HEART TO ANYONE EVER AGAIN.
I know I have like no followers, my blog sucks, and no one even reads these. But it’s just nice to post things here and kind of just get things out of my system.
I’m really depressed. But it’s a weird depression. I’m currently on 30 mg of antidepressants daily. The thing is recently I fell for a guy that really just…he has been the most amazing beautiful person I’ve ever met. But he just wanted to fuck me and be my friend. And then he freaked out cause we got too close, then distanced himself from me making me feel uncomfortable and awkward and sad, and finally I just stopped it all…I fucking love who he is and I care so much and he won’t let me care, he hates that I like him. Finally I find a guy that I fucking think is amazing and actually is amazing and he actually likes me back but he hates that I like him. I’ve never been in a relationship. Ad at this point I don’t think I ever will, I feel like this happens for a reason. So now I’m sad and depressed and alone and I miss him like crazy every single fucking day. But he could give a shit less. Whatever he’s better off without me. So I am sad. But my body doesn’t want to feel sad, it feels like a fake sad, it’s really confusing with my pills…idk…I miss him so much…I just have to get used to being alone. That’s how I’m gonna end up anyways.
A random ball pit is set up in the middle of a city
And this is what happens as people approach it.The video is so precious and cute <3
oh my god that is the sweetest thing ever
OMG that’s a block away from my school, no seriously I walk through here almost everyday. WHAT?!?!
Why you shouldn’t microwave a cell phone
it’s like the rebirth of Voldemort
HOLY SHIT
REBLOGGING THIS AGAIN BECAUSE AT ONE POINT IT LOOKS LIKE THERE IS A MOUTH OPENING AND CLOSING
WHAT THE EGFUTCKT
IT’S LIKE OPENING UP THE GATES OF HELL
i told you there was a monster in my phone….
brb microwaving my cell phone.
This shit is just to fucking wicked not to reblog….I think I am gonna start using the landline again
OMG IT’S LIKE A DARK CREATURE IS GETTING OUT OF THE PHONE OMG
This is really pretty awesome
But…the microwave platter isn’t spinning…so it’s not on…sooo….yeah….
How I’ll be spending my Christmas!
My family told me off today because I just always seem to fuck things up and I’m useless and theyre happier off without me there, it started out with my brother just being a jerk to a mixup with who was supposed to make a salad and Idk. They yelled pretty bad.
So I drove away for a good while till I got out of the valley and Parked in this random lot next to a liquor. I’m glad I’m gone because I know my family will be happier without me. I think everyone is happier without me. I doubt anyone will read this. I don’t have very many followers…but if you do. Don’t take for granted having a loving family and a warm home. Don’t be upset if your Christmas isn’t extravagant or you don’t have very many presents or anything. If you have a home, family, warm food, and smiles. Then be happy you’re not parked outside a random liquor store by yourself knowing you’re just a burden to those you love the most…
Merry Christmas everyone.
Bored so I’m uploading some pix of me from Friday, the day before I got deadly sick. Lol
Go to an event on campus and see so many people who you used to be so close to.
And try talking to people only to have them say they have to go meet their friends or people they came with. And stand there in the middle of the room by yourself. Having literally tons of people you know completely pass you by. For 20 minutes I literally felt like I didn’t exist…so I left…and now I feel empty…
And just commuting to school.
What’s the pointof me being here anyways,just loosing money.
Not like I have any friends here .
I guess I’m content with myself in certain aspects of my life…but Im not happy.
This is the perfect time to reinvent myself. I started seeing my psychologist, starting a new school year as a director for my organization, lead manager at work, and upper div classes.
I may not have many friends right now, but I’ve decided that for the first time in my life Im going to focus on me and me alone.
Im going to reinvent myself both physically and mentally.
Gonna get into the best, healthiest fittest shape of my life, change my hairstyle and clothing style, going to get focused on classes and school and get great grades, going to prove myself in my leadership positions, and most importantly I am going to strengthen myself mentally. I will be a better person.
I need this.
Hey Whats up!
